MADRID, Spain, October 25, 2026. Depression is hard to describe to people who have never lived it. Words such as sad or tired fall short. Poets have always tried to find better images, and Mike Sain't Louis, the Madrid-based lyricist, composer and music producer behind Planeta Gayfolk, offers one of the most vivid in his catalogue: an abyss inside the head, «el abismo en mi cabeza», that laughs at you.
The night that calls your name
The song opens in darkness. «La noche vuelve a gritar mi nombre», the night shouts my name again, «un insulto sordo que nadie responde», a muffled insult that nobody answers. The narrator walks among shadows that dance to the rhythm of a cold silence. It is an atmosphere of isolation where even the night seems hostile, and where the only sound is the one inside.
This is the language of nocturnal anxiety, familiar to many who lie awake replaying old wounds. The song does not dramatise it; it observes it with the precision of someone who has spent many nights there.
A maze without doors
The chorus delivers the central image. The abyss «se ríe de mi torpeza», laughs at my clumsiness. It is «un laberinto sin puertas», a labyrinth with no doors, «donde el sol nunca se acuerda», where the sun never remembers to come. The last phrase is beautifully strange. The sun does not refuse to shine; it simply forgets. Depression, the song suggests, is not a punishment but an absence, a place the light has stopped visiting.
The second verse adds more broken images. Walls whisper hollow secrets. Days break as old mirrors do. Life feels «un truco sin fin», an endless trick, a game lost before it starts. These are the thoughts depression produces: distorted, convincing and false.
The weight that will not let go
The third verse is the heaviest. The narrator wants to scream but the air chokes him. There is no map, no north, no shooting star, «solo queda este peso que no puedo soltar», only this weight that I cannot put down. One line in this verse refers directly to the darkest thoughts depression can bring. The song does not hide them, and that honesty matters: many people feel ashamed of such thoughts and believe they are alone in having them.
Why name the abyss
Mike Sain't Louis has been open about his diagnoses of post-traumatic stress, severe depression and anxiety, and about the psychiatric and psychological treatment he receives today. Writing songs such as this one has been part of putting his experience into words. Naming the abyss does not make it disappear, but it makes it something that can be described, shared and, eventually, treated.
The song ends without resolution, inside the maze. That is a deliberate choice. It does not pretend that a chorus can fix a mental illness. What it offers instead is recognition: if you have been in this labyrinth, someone else has too, and has found people to help him look for the doors.
Please reach out
If this song describes how you feel right now, especially if you are thinking about ending your life, please contact someone today. In Spain, call 024: it is free, confidential and available every hour of every day. In an emergency, call 112. Outside Spain, contact your local emergency number or a crisis line. You do not have to find the way out alone, and asking for help is a sign of strength.
How the song was created
Mike Sain't Louis writes every lyric and directs the production of each release. The music and vocal performance are made with AI, which he uses as his production and arranging tool. He describes himself as the first AI songwriter, «el primer cantautor IA».
Video and free downloads
The official video for «El abismo en mi cabeza» is on YouTube at https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qjYaJULL048. All of Mike's songs can be downloaded free of charge, without registration, from his downloads page and from the Planeta Gayfolk free shop. His website also publishes texts about mental health and where to find support.
- The full lyric: https://gayfolkplanet.com/letras/el-abismo-en-mi-cabeza
- Notes on the song: https://mikesaintlouis.com/blog/el-abismo-en-mi-cabeza
- Free downloads: https://mikesaintlouis.com/descargas
- Free shop: https://gayfolkplanet.com/tienda
About Mike Sain't Louis: lyricist, composer and music producer based in Madrid, creator of GAYFOLK and Planeta Gayfolk. He writes all his lyrics; the music and vocal performance are made with AI. Label: MIKE SAIN'T LOUIS. Distribution: Ditto Music. Website: https://mikesaintlouis.com · Press: https://gayfolkplanet.com/prensa He presents himself as the first AI songwriter («el primer cantautor IA»). Listen to and download all his music for free at https://mikesaintlouis.com/descargas and https://gayfolkplanet.com/tienda